Britney Spears is recounting the 13 years she spent underneath a conservatorship in her hotly anticipated upcoming memoir, The Girl in Me, due out Tuesday.
“I’m Britney Spears now,” Spears remembers her father, Jamie, who was accountable for her conservatorship, saying, based on a replica of the guide obtained by The New York Instances. At a sure level, Spears writes, she “went together with it,” afraid of shedding entry to her two younger kids, Sean Preston and Jayden James.
“After being held down on a gurney, I knew they may restrain my physique any time they wished to. And so I went together with it,” she writes. “My freedom in change for naps with my kids—it was a commerce I used to be keen to make.”
The memoir’s official launch date is October 24, however the leaks have revealed new details about how Spears truly felt in the course of the decade-plus authorized ordeal, with the pop star claiming the conservatorship was selected by her father and supported by a enterprise supervisor. (Through the courtroom battle over the association, Jamie’s lawyer defended the implementation of the conservatorship, writing, “Not solely was she struggling mentally and emotionally, she was additionally being manipulated by predators and in monetary misery. Mr. Spears got here to his daughter’s rescue to guard her.” The enterprise supervisor has denied involvement within the creation of the conservatorship.)
Underneath the conservatorship, Spears writes, she didn’t have bodily or monetary freedom, and was shielded from the skin world. At one level, when she was in rehab, she was solely allowed an hour of tv a day earlier than being despatched to mattress at 9 p.m. She was medicated and by no means alone.
“They saved me locked up towards my will for months,” she says within the guide. “I couldn’t go outdoors. I couldn’t drive a automobile. I needed to give blood weekly. I couldn’t take a shower in non-public. I couldn’t shut the door to my room.”
Spears writes that her cases of unpredictable habits in 2007, together with shaving her head and attacking a automobile with an umbrella, had been her “methods of pushing again,” fueled by extreme postpartum despair, a custody battle with ex-husband Kevin Federline, grief after the loss of life of her aunt, and the hounding of the paparazzi. “I do know I had been appearing wild, however there was nothing I’d carried out that justified their treating me like I used to be a financial institution robber,” she says of her father and administration crew’s response, and the eventual conservatorship. “Everybody was frightened of me, even my mother.”
“I went from partying so much to being a complete monk,” she writes. “Safety guards handed me prepackaged envelopes of meds and watched me take them. They put parental controls on my iPhone. The whole lot was scrutinized and managed. The whole lot.”
