Kelsey Parker has admitted she’s been dreading Christmas this 12 months, because it’s the primary one with out her husband Tom.
The Wished star misplaced his life in March this 12 months on the age of 33, after a year-and-a-half lengthy battle with stage 4 glioblastoma mind most cancers.
Kelsey defined the problem of grief for herself and their two youngsters, Aurelia, three, and Bodhi, two.
Confession: Kelsey Parker has admitted she’s been dreading Christmas this 12 months, because it’s the primary one with out her husband Tom
She defined that the toughness of the day was exacerbated by the truth that she had her grandad’s funeral tomorrow.
‘Hey everybody, I do know plenty of you’ve gotten been checking in with me as we speak and I simply actually recognize it, thanks a lot.
‘In the present day’s been an actual battle. It is my grandad’s funeral tomorrow, so I feel that is like bringing, like surfacing plenty of grief and trauma and doubtless a little bit of post-traumatic stress. It is simply been so powerful.’
Tragic: She defined that the toughness of the day was exacerbated by the truth that she had her grandad’s funeral tomorrow
She then added that she was ‘caught off guard’ by a wave of grief after wrapping presents for her youngsters and realising they might be from simply her this 12 months.
Kelsey added: ‘And you recognize what I’ve spent the night doing? Wrapping presents.
‘And never that Tom would have ever helped me really wrap a gift. I do not assume for the entire 13 years I used to be with him, he really ever wrapped a gift, apart from mine and I blatantly know he acquired another person to wrap them.
Terrible: The Wished star misplaced his life in March this 12 months on the age of 33 , after a year-and-a-half lengthy battle with stage 4 glioblastoma mind most cancers
‘It was writing the present tags. Like “To Ray, to Bo, Merry Christmas, A lot of love Mummy”. Like that basically actually acquired me tonight. It caught me abruptly.
‘And I sat there and I used to be writing them and I used to be like all these presents are simply from me. I do not know, that is the factor with grief, it actually catches you off guard.
‘And I feel deep down I did know this as a result of that is why I’ve simply been pushing aside Christmas. I’ve actually simply been dreading, dreading Christmas.’
Making an attempt to remain optimistic, Kelsey went on: ‘However I’ve acquired to make the perfect of what I’ve acquired. I’ve additionally gotta do it for the youngsters. I’ve gotta ensure that that is an incredible Christmas for them.
‘I am simply going to be so heartbroken. Nothing like a funeral a couple of days earlier than Christmas. I’ve acquired a poem that I am studying for the funeral. And I have been going via that this morning. That simply completely tore me aside.
She signed off by sadly concluding: ‘I imply what a 12 months.’
Unhappy: She then added that she was ‘caught off guard’ by a wave of grief after wrapping presents for her youngsters and realising they might be from simply her this 12 months
